I'm happy with my coffee

Its been more than a month and no new posts!well it does worry me too. i m afraid i m losing this interest to the new addiction to facebook. its more than a social networkin place and i m lovin every fb moment. well..exams could be another good excuse but i wanna be truthful to myself if not to you folks...for i ve always used this space for spillin out all my thoughts. something that could release a lot of pent up emotions. i had to check out my first post to find out when i started blogging.(i m not a diary person u knw).beleive me guys!its been more then 2 yrs and i ve loved every minute here as much as i love fb now!!

What made me blog today was the frivolous attitude of the govt. exactly a year back, the city of mumbai was under attack and justice not yet delivered. quoting a recent tweet, when a new movie opens up in theaters, there is almost 70% turnout...but only 40% for voting...what have we learnt?very true, there is a problem with the system and also with us. we arent concerned about the world around us. life has seem to ve lost value in this busy world of stocks and numbers and politics and entertainment. this means to me a failure of an entire generation. you have understood life the very wrong way.failure to produce good leaders, failure to produce concerned citizens and failure to sustain harmony and peace. species getting extinct. men getting killed. is this the world we live in? i have lost full faith in the judiciary system of my country..a system that hasnt yet tried the 26/11 attacker...not long frm now,our pockets may go a bit more heavy carryin guns for protection. bullets sold at cash and carry. try it and if you are not satisfied, we ll give you a full refund!

Meanwhile..the younger generation is too busy apeing the west. they think its good to be 'kewl' than cool.suddenly the whole world looks foolish.there is profanity in speeches, obscenity in films and lack of intelligence among people. if this what testifies modern development, i wud be more then happy being under developed. i m so very angry that one could spot indotherms out of me.the men are becomin increasingly boring.the women worse.my only respite these days is my cup of coffee and my pc. its much better spending time with this pal who cant understand more than binary than with my look-alike creatures who are way too stupid.

Btw..its nice to be bak blogging..though i ve not got huge followers for my blog or too much comments pouring in for any post, i ve loved the journey till this very moment and i hope to continue this.....but much like the "tree falling in the forest" riddle..i dunno if my blog ever exists.oh cmon!11:44 is not the time for metaphysics.

facebook:what's on your mind?
haha!many things :)

A SALUTE TO THE MARTYRS OF 26/11
hugs
balaji

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to where i belong?

Roads that prove tough for a sedan, lush greenery all over, deserted streets, the huge and the not-so-huge rivers, friendly ppl, temples frequented by foreigners and a slow life..who says villages suck?

its this 3 day tour i jus finished visiting my native place and so many temples. my recent visit seems to ve jus watered my plant of interest towards our culture. its this "tough to pick up word" kinda feeling u get when u visit ur ancestral places sometimes wondering these really are ur valuable assets. you realize you are here because of them.i dunno whether a joke at this place would be appropriate but then i m a very frank writer and leave reading to ur choice. [[[yeah...the joke..in one of the conversation between a father and son while dicsussing computers...the dad explains"son..the undo button on the toolbar can be used to remove the effect of your last change..in the sense it ll give u back what you had before.."...the son says"hmm...so if there was an undo button in your life...i wouldnt be exactly standing here"]]]. coming back to the ancestry thing..gosh!the ancestry thing??ridiculous:)..its not very often you get to experience such contrasting environments...something city life cant jus cater to. i ve mentioned a lot abt temples in my previous posts and havent received a single comment!!so i ll take it as a excuse to avoid giving my temple experience...write something abt obama..and comments pour in!!crazy world:)well that again is ur choice.talking about choices, i wanna bring about one of the convos i had during the journey especially during times when u are bored watching out the so many mountains on the freeway and one looks no different than the other or the times when your ipod playlist restarts..i had this question for my uncle..given an option to stay either in the village or the city...whr would u live??he was quick enuf to choose the former. the same question was put back to me..this "and u?" act is so common in discussions especially when u don have a question of ur own but are still interested in keepin the convo ticking!!i couldnt reply quick.to be honest..i still havent!!coz i m thinking and too much thinking can strain ur neurons..so i take breaks occasionally by surfing the net..that doenst question my intelligence..jus that it isnt such an easy question after all.you ask me pratibha patil or obama and quick would be my reply.

hmm..yeah the tour again...was really memorable and amazing. whenever i talk about my past or ancestry, i pop up this saying from the back of my cerebrum..how is your ancestry important in ur life?? you life is like a potato plant..the best part of which is underground!!...definitely yes,your past is very important...so is ur present and ofcorse ur future..so wht happened to the question that was put to me?hmm...village life is definitely poetic and looks great.but you knw what??..the first thing i did when i was back home was switch on my pc:)

later that evening, i crossed a high traffic lane, i inhaled more pollution..i found not so friendly people, i heard the big honks and gazed at the huge movie posters..u may have your own views...but city life seems much better..i m looking out of the window now..its raining nice here..shall ask for a hot cup of chai now..hope u enjoyed reading this post as i leave to enjoy my tea.

i belong here,
balaji

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the 9 km ride---trrrr,fumes and thoughts

it was 6.45 am.my distance-traveled meter read 10073.

i kickstarted my drive(the real meaning of the word) and within seconds,i was on the roads of a country thats celebrating 62 yrs of freedom today.i dunno why,but i ve never felt so happy riding my scooter as much i felt this morning.the climate too did all it could to make things more pleasant.as the wheels rolled front,my thoughts rolled back to the times when our country was ruled by the british.

the injustice and torture done to us were perhaps the worst acts of human nature.we had seen the worst.yet,we won our freedom through non violence.such a great nation this is.i pay my respects to millions of ppl who sacrificed their lives for the country.the britishers showed us the worst of human nature and we replied in the best of india.i salute those souls for they gave their lives to ensure a free india tmrw.

man doesnt know wht happens to him after death.we ve all grown up listening to stories of spirits and i hope if those great souls are here somewhr...all i want to tell them is that we are now a great nation.a nation with a great blend of colors,religion,languages,cultured,cuisines and yet united.a nation that has produced great scientists and engineers and doctors and wht not.a nation with jubliant youngsters who are hungry to achieve things,a nation which has embraced cultures frm across the world and a nation that respects and values its past.we are now a nation with one of the largest cellular subscribers,we are a nation which has a fantastic film industry...we ve achieved many things and are still growing.

as the tricolor was hoisted,i felt goosebumps.the national anthem was sung.i was moved.i climbed on my bike bak and set home.i am so proud to be an indian.i respect my identity.i value my heritage.i cherish my culture.if there is something called rebirth,my only wish is to be born again in this great land!!

it was 9.00.my distance-traveled meter read 10082.

hugs
balaji

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my poetic side exposed!!!

dunn wanna fill this post with crap.jus a plain poem.
read thru and lemme know.


It’s a gifted child they said
And looks of more me than you
Oh father!you ve finally answered
We are among a blessed few.

Hes born in the month of December
As the world is filled with joys
He ll make history in this planet,said they
But fate had a different choice

It was white all around for them
But grey it was for him
Oh my god..whts wrong
The priest said you ve sinned.

Twas winter
And spring looked really far behind
He was a cute litlle fella
Jus that he was blind

He couldn’t go to school
As Irwin and as eve
He could all but feel
But not see his parents grieve.

They cursed the lord they praised
why are you so injust?i ve done nothing harm.
Don talk to him like that said the lad
For I can still hear and speak the psalm.

Mamma! A competition I heard is in town
That of a spelling bee
I think I can give it a shot
Thers nothing they want you to see

Ofcorse!you ll win said mom
But his dad thought the claims were tall
I know I cant see the colors
But who said I cant spell them all?

He participated and he even won
He won the hearts and the prize
On given the mike said he
Thank you god!i dunno if I cud ve done this
if he’d given me those eyes.

But then a request he made
I want you to donate thy eyes
For I want to see that lord
Who made me get this prize!

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hey....how do i look?

ahem...the new me is 1 day old.my master decided to gimme a complete makeover ystrday.i havent been liking my previous avatar u knw....the black backgrounds,the pic of my master(he sux!!sshh).my master finished off his exams ystrday and he seemed to be so really releived that he stayed up till minutes after midnite to dress me up.after all..i like u human folks too, need change.but i shud tell you this.

i ve been genuine and loyal to him than any of you guys.he has filled me with almost everything sometimes crap but sometimes real good posts.i ve jus accepted them without a single objection.not too often ve i showed up"bad server" msg to stop him frm uploading thigs which i thought werent dat good.so hes finally done justice.and here i am.my colleagues say i look decent.(guess wht..ms.wordpress says i'm hot!!).

i knw u are in love with my new avatar too.mail me ur comments.guess my inbox is already overflowing.cant really help it.its a mad mad world!!.
so when the site traffic increases,you knw why.but balaji mite think its becoz of his posts.poor fella!!
oh shit!i can hear someone coming in.i think its him.he doesnt knw i m doing this.

i m not going to sign off by "hugs" like how he does.i hate touching human folks.
so its jus a quick bye

http://csayeebalaji.blogspot.com

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hot,hotter,hottest

omg!!this is one of the tuffest times to pass in chennai.with the mercury touching all time highs,you can do nothing but endorse the "stay indoors" campaign.and yes,talking about campaigning,the general elections are round the corner and its time for us to vote.

i m 19.and yes i wanna vote.but unfortunately,i dun have my name in the voters list.this keeps me away from the booths on may 13th.but if someone asks,i can always say that none of the candidates interest me!!the customary excuse thats been passed on to us hereditary.

but i guess everyone should come out and vote.voting is one of the most beautiful gifts of democracy which helps us decide whom we want to lead us.but then,most of us take the election day as a good holiday.and with the temp rising,i m a bit skeptical about the turnout this yr.the other thing thats happening this summer is IPL.some great cricket action for the country that lives cricket,though i personally believe that it wud ve been better if it was conducted in india.they moved it to south africa for security reasons.arey yaar...its election time and the politicians are busy with the elections...so thers no reason to worry(no pun intended).

ah yes,coming bak to the summer,i m trying hard to stick on to the "beat the heat" column suggestions in the daily.going for less black n more white for some time.tried even sticking my head into the fridge once.its bloody 40+ here dude.

i hate anything that goes above 40.(ipl is actually my brainchild)...hey wait....excuse me dad!...whts ur age???

le personnel type de wearie clotha lessier
(the person whos typing with less clothes on)

balaji
(now what language was dat!!!!)

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these times make me think...

when you are sulking around for a coupla days or more,you know that thngs arent going the rite way.but then,thats what coll life is all abt they say.i m smart enuf to knw that college is all not abt bunking classes,the party times,girlfriends or bikes.i m not the guy who gets cross on silly things and never i allow petite matters to spoil my day.

its been a good journey so far.the very first day of coll was very special.as such,first is always special.be it the first place in sports,academics or anything,its got a different feeling.all i hoped for on that first day was 4 good years which when remembered long after would bring a smile on my face.i ve relished the time spent so far,thanks to the company of some great friends.

life is full of crests and troughs.but its some strange periods such as the one i m going thru now that makes you feel boring.days ve been tuff for some while and today was no exception.today was the kind of day where you start with a great morning and draw a sulky face towards the evening.teachers play a great role in a students life.they are the ppl whom u admire and look forward to.but little do they realize they have such a beautiful responsibility..building tomorrow's citizens.good teachers is history.what we have in schools and coll are jus ppl who teach some things they know to others who dont and they charge a fee for that.service?u mus be crazy!!!!!!.

i dun expect them to be model teachers but atleast they can be sensible and a bit responsible.but thanks to some teachers void of all that,my day today was spoilt.a case taht may ve been dealt in a smooth manner was blown out of proportion and i bear the brunt.now all f them seem to ve a grudge on me.but as i said,these things little bother me.for they are just troughs in between crests of happiness and joy and the company of beautiful friends. and when i m going thru troughs,i knw that the crest is sumwhr round the corner.

when i leave this campus 2 yrs later,i m gonna carry a heap of memories..some sweet and some that make u sad...some that make you laugh and some cry.but they are memories.and they always remain sweet.when i recollect these days later,when me and all my classmates wud ve been settled in what they call "life"...the emotions would overflow.tears wud roll down the cheeks and i d jus smile at my son and tell him"your dad is blessed with great friends".

i m feeling much better now and i think i ve already lost that cross feeling.
when winters come,can spring be left far behind???


hugs
balaji

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